I have been working all weekend and am ready for a little break. I’ve stolen a few minutes to escape to the coffee shop to just “chill”. Since I gave up coffee for lent, it is kind of hard to order, then add the fact that I’ve started to write down what I eat and drink, I’m watching calories!

I’ve been to a “fake” lab at Science City and did a body fat test. The test said my body fat was 30% and 30% is obese. I got online to check out Denise Austin’s website and typed in how tall I am and how much I weigh and how old I am and what I’d like to weigh. Her little formula gave me the same response! So I’ve started keeping track of my exercise and food intake since the day before Valentines Day.

My husband is kinda doing the same thing. We are both really trying to make healthier food choices and trying to exercise daily. We even went as far as measuring our hips, chest, waist, thighs and arms. We don’t have a scale so we don’t know what we weigh. Measuring will give us some indication of change. After the first two weeks I lost a total of 2” all around so like ¼ or ½ inch in each location.

Overall I feel better but today my body hurts. I had a cold in my shoulder on Saturday and it really hurt. Now I just ache all over. I feel exhausted and droopy so today is a good day to just relax. It is cloudy and cold outside so that doesn’t help boost the mood or energy. I would love for the day to just be a veggie day and just be lazy but there are no such days in my life.

I have a meeting soon and then have to go to the office. I have a mess to clean up after the youth event on Saturday; I should have done it right away but I was wiped after the event and wanted to be able to go through everything and take inventory.

It seems as if my roller coaster life is in high speed! I’m beginning to feel overwhelmed again. I guess it is this time of year. I can’t even thing because if I do I remember there is something I need to do that should have been done already. I think I will make a list of stresses, things on my mind, tasks I feel I need to accomplish, people I feel I’m not giving enough time or attention to and perhaps it will make me feel better.

I made an appointment to have a full body massage. I’m hoping it will help ease some tension and will help me relax. Maybe even rejuvenated! I feel like I’m mad or frustrated with just about everyone and everything right now. Even the struggle to day, I’m going to relax today and not work puts tension in my back and neck.

My mind swims with all of the work I could accomplish if I only went to the office for a couple of hours OR what I could accomplish at home! I almost fear having the realization that I did nothing today, which of course won’t happen since I have responsibilities to take care of the rest of the day. Plus I have two meeting tonight, one I’m in charge of leading.

I can understand a bit why people just shut down or lose their minds or fly off the handle. I feel all of that! I would love to not get out of bed in the AM but know how much I am depended on just to do that simple task. WOW! What would happen? I couldn’t handle the questions…What’s wrong Mom? Or worse, the knowledge that if I didn’t get up then no one else could accomplish what they needed for the day. They wouldn’t get to school, they don’t get lunch, they don’t get showers or homework done – nothing! I know it’s important to slow down, I just need to do it! Thank you Lord for this moment to vent!